I’m saying sorry in advance cause this won’t always go to plan
Though we don’t mean to take our love for granted
It's in our nature to forget what matters
How when the going is getting tough
And we’re all about giving up
Things that we never thought we’d say, gonna say them
Things that we never thought we’d play, gonna play them
It ain’t perfect, but it’s worth it
And it’s always getting better
It’s gonna take some time to get it right

Cause I’m still learning the art of love
I’m still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out for me
Cause I’m still trying to learn the art of love

If I forget to get the door
Remind you that you’re beautiful
I know my detail requires more attention
If I ever hurt you it’s not my intention
Cause we’re gonna make our mistakes
Find out how much your heart can take
But I know that you got my back
And baby I got yours
If this is what it takes for you to believe in yourself, then seize all of it. Let that little symbol represent a metaphor of not only who you can be, but a reminder to the world about personal faith ♥

As much as I still want this, I will not tell them. I’ll drive myself into thinking this is the actual fact. A fact in which wasn’t customary to me. The mind stresses to surrender but yet the heart chose to persevere. They walked out on me, just when obscurity began to horizon. They surpassed the metaphorical door of my faint heart. I waited in silence as I gave them a choice to reconsider their approach. I waited in vain, hoping they will not leave. Yet, they insisted me on locking the door. I procrastinated because I chose to believe this is not how it ends. But with much courage they summoned upon leaving me.

I shan’t hold them back any further. The heart ached a million times more when I realised that was it. The eyes leaked an ocean when I realised I was out of ideas. Tries become tried. Attempts seen as denied. I lost my will of hoping, just as I gave my heart away. No, I can’t stop them. No, I won’t stop them. They must have given much thought into leaving, that ‘looking back’ wouldn’t be an issue then. I don’t blame them. Everyone has limits, even them. They took in what they could. They swallowed what was stuff into them, till a breaking point where they erupt from and made a stand. They sacrificed everything for me.

Congrats for being the first to almost everything. Congrats for being the one whom made me overwhelming. Congrats for being the one whom portrayed happiness to me. Congrats for being the one whom believed in me. Congrats for being the one whom danced with me. Congrats for being the one whom in vision a future with me. Congrats for being the one whom I looked up to. Congrats for being the one whom I loved whole-heartedly. And lastly, congrats for walking out my door, walking out on me. Yes, they walked out one me upon knowing I was too weak to continue fighting in this battlefield. They gave up on me instantly.

This week was a bumper in each and every corner. It was filled with complications from my Mathematic Facilitator to Luqmanul Hakim to Steven then to KhairulHaziq’s ex-girlfriend and even KhairulHaziq himself. I shed too much tears to begin with. But I won’t and I repeat I won’t let any of these bring me down. I know I’ve been such a bother or a burden to them and many more people. Yet, I'm still too stubborn as to keep these things to myself. I'm sorry once again. Nevertheless, I'll start looking things at a different perspective. I'll look at the other open doors and opportunities. Lastly, I hope the week to come would be better (:

“ I make up my mind to quit school .
It has been 3 days not going to work too .
Just waiting to sign paper of quitting school .
Haiss my mum and Khairiya nags sey !! How ?

I just lose the interest my dear .
You will never understand it .
Hmm , sorry Khairiya I disappoint you again ):
Anybody got job offers ? Please tag ! Thanks . – quoted from Steven’s blog
Another empty feeling in my heart, why? God enlighten me, please. Why am I feeling so empty? Worried is possibly an understatement of what I'm feeling for you now. Please ok, don't do anything stupid. Don't let your emotions override your rational thinking. No matter what you have your family and friends. There is more to life, more to look forward to. Cheer up, ok? You’ve not disappoint me yet. I've told you, I'm here whatever, whenever and forever (: But can you reconsider it again my dear? Please, for your Mum and my sake. Just a quick update, a proper one would be done later in the day.